It's so bad, and yet I keep doing it!
I've tried to tell myself to stop it. The original goal was that I wasn't going to pick for the three weeks before the ball. Well, I fell off the wagon approximately every other day.
When I told Aaron, he asked "When were you ever on the wagon???"
Well, I did the same thing this week. It's so bad that the three year old I nanny for has been very concerned about the boo boo on my face. Also, my niece asked about my "poor little owie" on my chin.
Now I have a HUGE scab right in the middle of my chin...prompting me to make a new commitment. I will not pick for the rest of the year. If I succeed in purging the puss of this terrible addiction from my life, I will reward myself with this:
a fairly inexpensive item I have never been able to justify purchasing
Can I succeed? I severely lack will power in this area. Before I got sick, I was super disciplined about everything. Now, because I have to be so careful with my energy, I am alot easier on myself.
But my only goals for December are to break my addiction, and to catch up on two months' worth of Bible reading in 20 days. I have gotten seriously behind and want to complete the year having read it in a year.
Wish me luck!!!